Thoughts on the being a Wanderer

[Bring4th_Austin]

Hi Sabou,

This is an interesting question I think, because there is some debate among Law of One students as to whether or not those who resonate and understand this material are all wanderers, or if it is possible for other types of beings to be drawn to this material.

There is one quote that some would say is important in answering this question:

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Questioner: I’ll just ask one little short one that you may not be able to answer before the final… The short one is, can you tell me what percentage of the Wanderers on Earth today have been successful in penetrating the memory block and becoming aware who they are, and then finally, is there anything that we can do to make the instrument more comfortable or improve the contact?

Ra: I am Ra. We can approximate the percentage of those penetrating intelligently their status. This is between eight and one-half and nine and three-quarters percent. There is a larger percentile group of those who have a fairly well defined, shall we say, symptomology indicating to them that they are not of this, shall we say, “insanity.” This amounts to a bit over fifty percent of the remainder. Nearly one-third of the remainder are aware that something about them is different, so you see there are many gradations of awakening to the knowledge of being a Wanderer. We may add that it is to the middle and first of these groups that this information will, shall we say, make sense.

Unfortunately, like many other passages from Ra, this statement seems to be subject to over-interpretation or misinterpretation. Some believe that, in the last sentence, Ra is saying that it is only to these groups of wanderers that the Law of One material will make sense. That is to say, virtually all Law of One students would be wanderers, and more than that, wanderers who have at least somewhat penetrated their status.

While I believe that is a possible interpretation, I don't think it is the only interpretation, and based on personal experience, I don't personally believe it is correct.

One argument is that Ra didn't necessarily name these groups exclusively. In the context, they are discussing wanderers, and so it is possible that Ra means that among wanderers, those groups are the ones who will understand. I don't think this implies that no one else would understand outside of wanderers.

A smaller argument would be the vagueness of "this information." I think it could be pretty likely that Ra is referring to the material they are transmitting as a whole, but they did not specifically indicate that. For them to throw in a non-descriptive and vague statement like that would be uncharacteristic had they intended to refer to something as substantial the entirety of the material. Though not everything Ra does is completely characteristic and sometimes they are not as descriptive as they could be.

However, I think my biggest reason for not subscribing to this interpretation is more anecdotal and personal, in that I don't personally believe I am a wanderer (in that sense). It is a tricky subject because given my relationship with the material and my personal nature, lots of people find it difficult to believe that I am not a wanderer.

But when dealing with something so esoteric and "unknowable," I think the best indicator we have to understand something is our own heart and intuition. When I first heard about the concept of wanderers, like you Sabou, I did not really resonate with the idea. It made sense to me but I simply didn't feel like I was one. I did feel at odds with the society around, but there simply wasn't an acknowledgment within me that this is who I am at heart.

There have been a few indicators along the way that I am indeed a wanderer. The people I have found in my spiritual family all identify as such, and there is a strong sense of metaphysical bond. I had a deeply significant mystical experience that seemed to paint a narrative of me being a soul from a higher density, with my spiritual family, and responding to an opportunity to offer service with a degree of enthusiasm and love I haven't felt outside of that experience before. When I read the Law of One material, I can feel the words in the depths of my being. And I am extremely blessed to find that my life circumstances have delivered me into a situation where I get to work with the material more closely than most other people will be able to, and I don't think anything could ever feel so right in my life.

Seems like plenty of evidence, yeah? Despite all of that, I just don't feel it. But there is something I do feel.

Despite not feeling like a wanderer, I do feel a bit like a stranger in a strange land, and I went through a period of very enthusiastically searching for answers about the nature of my soul's origins and my true nature, despite this type of information be secondary to the love and peace available to anyone, no matter their nature, in each moment. I was drawn to the idea of dual-activated bodies and did my best to figure out everything I could about them. I felt a bit of a fire inside of me when trying to learn more, and unlike my feelings when I learned about wanderers, I did feel a strong resonance within me. It felt right. My heart said “Yes, this is who you are.”

There is some decent evidence to support this as well. I feel like I match the description which both Ra and Q’uo give of the dual-activated entity. Various symptoms have been present, from my mom having a surge of spiritual energy when she was pregnant with me to a slow development and maturation. I also feel like I have the benefits of the dual-activated individual too (as described by Q’uo), as far as I can tell. I believe that, in my situation, the thinner veil mostly manifests as a certain ability to view my unconscious processes more directly and recognize roots of desires, expressions, and emotions within myself. I could be full of BS, but I feel like it is true.

On top of all this, I also have a very strong feeling about Earth as my home. And not a temporary home which I am welcomed to in order to help - I feel as though I am here to evolve with this planet, with these people. The idea of helping to birth the 4th density Earth and be a part of its social memory complex excites me. I don’t feel like I am here to wander, but as though I am here to stay. Sure, these are just feelings, subject to human distortion and bias, but I have meditated with them and sorted through them, searching for their roots, and it seems I am always simply led to the mysterious center of the heart which evades the intellectual analysis.

It’s a bit frustrating, not having this information within the grasp of surety. But I am happy to see in most people who identify as a wanderer the attitude that this information is relatively unimportant in comparison to the deeper spiritual truths. Of course, it can be fun to know, and even more it can offer a type of comfort, context, and inspiration which will allow wanderers to fulfill their mission and share love, but the ultimate nature of a wanderer is the same as that of a 3rd density native – the One Infinite Creator.