[quote='Parsons' pid='164726' dateline='1413494702']
I am not accusing anyone of being 'STS' as that is quite a feat to reach 95%, but there are two choices for the interpretation of catalyst:
Good post Parson! And I understand what you mean by interpretation of catalyst being relative.
I feel that the "world catalyst", as I perceive it, is driving me to want to develop myself spiritually so as to provide positive defense against what seems to be a very strong negative influence. But that is with the caveat of only if we are called upon to do so, at the societal level, or for individuals.
My ultimate hope would be to provide positive service. At what level I would even be capable of providing in that realm, I don't know.
Honestly, this sense of urgency, this intense drive to further study of the Great Work, with a focus on spiritual "warfare/defense", is excruciating. This is why I'm reaching out. It is very distracting. Because there is this constant feeling of needing to prepare, to strengthen, and to be vigilant.
And biggest paradox of all, is I'm the last person I would pick to want to focus on something like this. If there is a "this" at all. So why this "Far Beyond Driven" intensity in this direction I just can't understand. It has been a struggle for almost 2 years.
Your suggestion on the GAIA GROUP is excellent, and a great start for me to get off this solitary path.
I am not accusing anyone of being 'STS' as that is quite a feat to reach 95%, but there are two choices for the interpretation of catalyst:
Good post Parson! And I understand what you mean by interpretation of catalyst being relative.
I feel that the "world catalyst", as I perceive it, is driving me to want to develop myself spiritually so as to provide positive defense against what seems to be a very strong negative influence. But that is with the caveat of only if we are called upon to do so, at the societal level, or for individuals.
My ultimate hope would be to provide positive service. At what level I would even be capable of providing in that realm, I don't know.
Honestly, this sense of urgency, this intense drive to further study of the Great Work, with a focus on spiritual "warfare/defense", is excruciating. This is why I'm reaching out. It is very distracting. Because there is this constant feeling of needing to prepare, to strengthen, and to be vigilant.
And biggest paradox of all, is I'm the last person I would pick to want to focus on something like this. If there is a "this" at all. So why this "Far Beyond Driven" intensity in this direction I just can't understand. It has been a struggle for almost 2 years.
Your suggestion on the GAIA GROUP is excellent, and a great start for me to get off this solitary path.