I did tell her. I got a dream that made me think in the area of my relationship with the holy spirit and although I had a choice, the choice of keeping the secret would have been very painful.
So I phoned, she was VERY nice and she told my mother she had known anyway. I also came to a certain conclusion after the conversation that A) my bad ideas about my father were a little less correct than I thought since he told her, and B) that he loved me. Because we ended up discussing him a bit.
There are other things rattling around in me now. And this has come since I admitted my sins to others, so it is a sort of natural outpouring I think.
With my level of anxiety my ability to handle secrets has been greatly reduced.
So I phoned, she was VERY nice and she told my mother she had known anyway. I also came to a certain conclusion after the conversation that A) my bad ideas about my father were a little less correct than I thought since he told her, and B) that he loved me. Because we ended up discussing him a bit.
There are other things rattling around in me now. And this has come since I admitted my sins to others, so it is a sort of natural outpouring I think.
With my level of anxiety my ability to handle secrets has been greatly reduced.