Eternal Services - Closed

[tamaryn]

Tanner, I see myself in dire need of energetic assistance. And I have been calling and learning from the other energetic distortions/blockages in this thread - which have allowed me to face my suffering and gather awareness.

The mind inhibits and begins to shut down throughout the day - almost nullifying my energy to begin again a healing path.
I understand I have partially chosen this place and this makes me feel more uncomfortable - given my sincere efforts to lift myself. I succeed at times and feel a very healing pressure/presence in my third eye and all the world seems availed of a great fog.

For nearly 50 days I have been battling/surrendering/loving/accepting/feeling most intimately this great shadow self. Her kisses of shadow love.

I write this because I am struggling for what seems my life right now - or a very old portion of myself I am very ready to release.

Additionally nearly every time I begin to slip out of consciousness (falling asleep) I feel a heavy, heavy life threatening energy enter my energetic/physical body through the heart center; through the sacral/solar plexus - preventing me from surrendering myself completely to the productive use of sleeping- I love and I give the light of awareness to these most painful areas. Although there is still a trauma with the energetic sensitivity of mind.

Blessings to all reading this and love/light to all! All of you are with such courage to attempt a balance with such loving contentiousness.