Depression?

[AnthroHeart]

I won't glorify suicide. It just seems like a bad idea.
After all we don't truly know the repercussions,
and how it would affect us in the scheme of eternity.
It must have a bearing on the rest of our eternity.
And one who commits suicide may think of themselves
a coward. I don't want that judgment of myself.
I've never attempted it in a dream, though
I'm not sure why. I've attempted it in real life a number of times.
But I don't take it seriously so I don't really try hard.