Tried Everything

[anagogy]

I've called out to Ra, to my spirit guide, to my social memory complex. To mother Earth. To myself. I've tried meditation, different kinds. Some visualizing, some silent. I've called out to my higher self, and to the Logos. I've visualized myself being rocked to sleep in a woman's arms, while she sings to me.

But nothing can help me find that inner peace that I am looking for. To where my energy isn't worn out. Honestly I am exhausted from being here. I've gone out in nature, laid under the stars. I've prayed to God. I've told negative entities to get out of my field, and called in Christ energy to help cleanse me. But nothing works. I am physically worn out. Mentally tired. I've served others when I can. And I try to tend to my needs.

What can I do when nothing else works? I've tried laughing, but that only works for a moment, and only when I find something funny. I think maybe my meds make me groggy. My body hurts it's so tired. And it's hard to hold a thought.

I am not plagued by negative thinking, but my thoughts just don't fulfill me. I'm thinking I want to get to the state of no thought. I want to rest on a higher plane.

"99.5 ↥ Questioner: Finally, of the preliminary questions, one from Jim stating, “For the last three weeks I have often been at the edge of anger and frustration, have had a nearly constant dull pain at my indigo-ray center, and have felt quite drained of energy. Would Ra comment on the source of these experiences and any thoughts or actions that might alleviate it?”

Ra: I am Ra. As in all distortions, the source is the limit of the viewpoint. We may, without serious infringement, suggest three courses of behavior which shall operate upon the distortion expressed.

Firstly, it would be well for the scribe to engage, if not daily then as nearly so as possible, in a solitary strenuous activity which brings this entity to the true physical weariness. Further, although any activity may suffice, an activity chosen for its intended service to the harmony of the group would be quite efficacious.

The second activity is some of your space/time and time/space taken by the entity, directly or as nearly so as possible to the strenuous activity, for solitary contemplation.

Thirdly, the enthusiastic pursuit of the balancing and silent meditations cannot be deleted from the list of helpful activities for this entity.

We may note that the great forte of the scribe is summed in the inadequate sound vibration complex, power. The flow of power, just as the flow of love or wisdom, is enabled not by the chary conserver of its use but by the constant user. The physical manifestation of power being either constructive or destructive strenuous activity, the power-filled entity must needs exercise that manifestation. This entity experiences a distortion in the direction of an excess of stored energy. It is well to know the self and to guard and use those attributes which the self has provided for its learning and its service."

Do you exercise regularly Gemini Wolf?

You might be surprised by the effect this seemingly mundane solution has on depression.