Tried Everything

[ricdaw]

I've called out to Ra, to my spirit guide, to my social memory complex. To mother Earth. To myself. I've tried meditation, different kinds. Some visualizing, some silent. I've called out to my higher self, and to the Logos. I've visualized myself being rocked to sleep in a woman's arms, while she sings to me.

But nothing can help me find that inner peace that I am looking for. To where my energy isn't worn out. Honestly I am exhausted from being here. I've gone out in nature, laid under the stars. I've prayed to God. I've told negative entities to get out of my field, and called in Christ energy to help cleanse me. But nothing works. I am physically worn out. Mentally tired. I've served others when I can. And I try to tend to my needs.

What can I do when nothing else works? I've tried laughing, but that only works for a moment, and only when I find something funny. I think maybe my meds make me groggy. My body hurts it's so tired. And it's hard to hold a thought.

I am not plagued by negative thinking, but my thoughts just don't fulfill me. I'm thinking I want to get to the state of no thought. I want to rest on a higher plane.

Fill your spirit by helping others. Join a service group. Deliver meals to the elderly. Talk to hospice patients, play cards with them, visit them. Mentor a disadvantaged child. Become a foster parent. Volunteer at the local school. Raise money for charity. Run or walk in every Race for the Cure.

These things will give you reason to engage the day.

The people you help will mirror back your love x10.

Do these things on faith that they will be healing for you.