(06-30-2010, 04:46 PM)Shemaya Wrote: Thanks for your replies unity100, Ali Quadir and Namaste. I do appreciate your helpful responses, though as much as I desire it to feel wonderful to be a wanderer, it feels much the opposite to me at the moment.
I feel sadness and grief at the state of the world, the immense suffering on the planet, and the blockages to love that I have recently encountered. I know I have a sensitivity to all the energies (especially emotional) around me, and I great desire to transmute them, but how do I do this by choice? Or is it something else that I am doing...just being with the energy maybe?
How do you transmute grief when things are as they are right now...starving children, oil spills all over the world, difficulties in relationships, injustice, oppression, abuse? And not to mention being terribly homesick.
I would love to be able to transmute this right now...but I am at a loss of how to do it.
Any ideas?
That is precisely why wanderers are the Brothers and Sisters of Sorrow, called to the dark circumstances you have just described.
Wanderers are often very empathic by nature, and feel great compassion for other selves. This can, as you can personally vouch for, cause much distress.
With such compassion, it is no easy task (in itself an understatement) to open one's heart to the darkness of this world, yet it is exactly what one must do in order to validate the experience. Only love can conquer fear, and this can be achieved through an acceptance/understanding of the circumstances.
What helps me choose the light is to remember - as horrid as these things may be - that they serve a bigger purpose. Life is eternal, our lifetimes on Earth are minute fractions of existence and experience, used for rapid learning and spiritual evolution. Nothing happens by accident, lessons are being learned, roles are being played.
A question to ponder. Two sides of the same coin, as so to speak...
Would it help for you to operate in this world, vibrating at the level of those in pain, joining them in their suffering, emanating negative energy to others and the collective consciousness?
Would it help for you to accept that some are suffering, and act to the best of your ability to bring love, joy and peace to the world, to lighten the collective consciousness?
Either way is valid, and either way, the circumstances remain the same.
You are free to choose, and remember, your thoughts define your reality.
It takes time and considerable effort to accept the darkness. It is not a question of ignoring it, it's more to do with accepting it's validity as a catalyst for polarisation, and then to focus on things that make you feel good. You need not suffer on the behalf of others, you are of infinite value and deserve joy. And in a state of joy, you help yourself, create a future with less (and ultimately no) more suffering, radiate light to others, and help the transition from third to fourth density.
Update: May I offer some advice...
Firstly: do not to saturate your mind with the negative circumstances of the planet. Turn off the TV and stop reading the news. They are but a medium for fear. Instead, read a book, get outside, or simply day dream (very powerful indeed).
Secondly: try not to take the responsibility of the world on your shoulders. You are responsible for yourself, and how you treat others. Do so in a humble and caring fashion and you will be doing a great service to mankind. A true lightworker.
Thirdly: Follow your bliss. When you are passionate about something - do it as much as you can. It will move you into higher realms of consciousness, which will in turn help you accept the world as it is due to a higher emotional vibration. This also applies to day-by-day things too, always choose what you enjoy the most. If you are performing a task you do not prefer, add to it something that does. For example, while doing the chores, play some upbeat music. Watch things that uplift you. Listen to things that uplift you. Read things that uplift you. Talk to people who uplift you.
The key is to gradually lift yourself into happier and happier states of being, which in turn will effect both your experience and your outlook.
I hope this can be of some help to you. There are many wise and experienced souls on this forum who will be happy to offer help if you have any questions.
Update 2: This may also help - A Wanderers Handbook (PDF here). Written by a Wanderer, for Wanderers :¬)
It contains lots of messages from other Wanderers, in which you may find comfort and inspiration.
L&L