What are you afraid of (spiritually)?

[Confused]

Me too. I am also a little jealous of people who have had ufo experiences/contacts-that triggered their awakening. Like I don't matter enough to be contacted. That's silly, I know....but I feel it.

I understand what you mean there, ascension scout.

The feeling of being left out and cut away as insignificant is one of the most gaping holes in my soul that I am faced with, too. It feeds the mind with self righteous anger and fear, which turns into an addiction that poisons every part of intersection with the external world.