Eternal Services - Closed

[Rake]

Also after much thought I think I may have put my finger on one of my gifts. The ability to see the truth. Am I warm ?

Do you see the irony in asking for validation for the ability to see the truth? See in to yourself and you tell me if you are expressing the truth.

Indeed hense the smiley. My gf just said I have a lot of self doubt which is true. Do I express the truth? I doubt I do. One of my catalysts through this life and others has been the fear everything will go wrong. It seems that I also have a fear im not doing enough and im going to miss the boat as it were. I think worry of money has been pulling me down recently. Which would explain where the doubt is arising.

Aha I know all too well the stress and doubt that can come with financial difficult. However, I would really play your own words here over in your mind - "Do I express the truth? I doubt I do."

For what reason would you deceive yourself or others? It seems to me it's not a question necessarily of doubt, but of knowing. You doubt yourself because you are not certain of your own capacities. Why would you not express the truth?

I am an honest person and could be described as brutally honest at times (especially with myself). I wouldn't say I deceive others or myself? not intentionally. I think the problem does stem from knowing. I think knowing comes from the heart and to often my heart is drowned out by my mind. I try to meditate as much as possible but I become disillusioned when I don't feel there are results. So then I do doubt my own capacities as you put it.

I know there has to be patience in this lifetime. It's hard when I have this burning desire to help others and change the world where I can for the better. Perhaps I expect too much but if we are truly creator's of our own lives why shouldn't I believe I can make a big difference?. The problem is I know that I am making a difference vibrationally speaking just by living a life of love and joy. There are a lot of contradictions in my mind that make it all the more strange that I feel the way I do currently.

In the mean time i'm struggling with accepting the way things are and wanting to change the situation i'm in. Do I express the truth? I would say yes but not too a full capacity. I guess it's easy to express the truth fully when everything is sunshine and lollipops

Thanks again for the opportunity to question myself in more detail. I hope there's something of some use in there for you as well