Wakeing up after falling back to sleep...

[Redwind]

cheers, and welcome to the forums!

Since I was a child i have suffrered with severe emotions of alienation even towards my own family, my younger sister however is the exception for whatever reason who knows, perhaps she is a wanderer too?

yes, alienation seems to be a common symptom of Wanderers. Just an overall sense of 'not fitting in', or some form of incompatibility.

12.30 Questioner: [I just had a] thought. Do any of these Wanderers have physical ailments in this Earth situation?

Ra: I am Ra. Due to the extreme variance between the vibratory distortions of third density and those of the more dense densities, if you will, Wanderers have as a general rule some form of handicap, difficulty, or feeling of alienation which is severe.

The most common of these difficulties are alienation, the reaction against the planetary vibration by personality disorders, as you would call them, and body complex ailments indicating difficulty in adjustment to the planetary vibrations such as allergies, as you would call them.

and yet despite that 'incompatibility' I think there are many things we can do to consciously 'adjust' and adapt to the environment in which we chose to arrive in.

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From the end of 2011 to the begining of 2014 I felt my awakening came to a hault. Like my light had gone out and I was unsure of what path to follow and my spirtaul growth and faith came to an end.

Part of the reason why I am introducing myself to others on this forum now is because I believe once again I am in the process of a spirtaul evolution. I feel much more connected with my soul and spirit and I do believe I am on the path to awakening. I am able to tolerate the earths energies a little easier than prior experiances aswell with others and myself and my objective to guide souls towards their spirtual growth.

do you think there was anything 'concrete' that changed? or some form of insight into the self which enable the awakening to begin again?

quite often, in lull states (which may last months or even years) it may not feel as much is changing, and yet the accumulation of experiences and undertandings can often be like the building of momentum (like the rising tide behind a dam wall), before there is the opening of the sluice gates into a new period of existence.

It feels incrediable to once again connected all as one/ It is an honour to interaact with you all and share my story, I feel like it is the right time to introduce myself.

greetings, and thanks for sharing your story with us all.

namaste

I am reminded of a time when I was 7 years old of
looking up to the sky and asking why am I here and how big is this universe and at the same time feeling so alone and abandoned ....finding myself crying so often, but seeing Jesus at that age helped me to feel not so unwanted and indeed I was loved...I remember feeling so happy and elated knowing how much I looked like him.
I was in a long gown at the time very pail yellow and my hair was dark brown and long ...it never fazed me I was up with the light on while the rest of the house was in deep sleep either!
Don't know if ever anyone has herd their name called out to them in daylight and finding no one there but this used to be regular and on going when I was younger and through my teen years.
When I was about 14 I started to see beings coming through my walls at night and being up late at night looking out the window at bright white orbs feeling happy and not having a clue what it all meant.
My feelings of allianation were mounting very fast in my 20's and 30's and then one night while crying so deep inside and out these orbs of blue & green { they were alive and radiating energy} came in the room and I herd the words " are you ready to go?" I said yes but not without my children. That very time I was taken to another planet where people were healed and otherwise filled with love beyond
any words to describe here. When I returned I was so filled with LOve that there was no denying it was a real thing and place I say the shuttle craft that we were on I just gave it a glance as I was heading to a building with this man where they scan you to see what needs to be dont ...was my best way to describe it.
That feeling lasted for many years then gradually over the years
I was putting things together after a conversation with a woman here
who said it sounded like I was having ufo experiences and meeting with
them as well but I knew at that time it was more than that.
Best part of this encounter with my first new friend is that I had someone to talk to and long about the same time my mother confessed to me that she had beings coming to her when she was pregnant with me ...{at the time my mother was in a faze of her life she was lightening her load so her Soul felt lighter but she asked that I not tell anyone as they would put her away } to realize how all her life she kept that secret brought out feelings of compassion toward her! She is 90 yrs old now with a pacemaker. she was 85 at the time she told me this.
So that not being all that has happened, but some of the highlights plus 2 more recent ones... where a ship that came and we had mental contact {my feelings of Love are strong when calling the ships}I told them people are doing the best they can getting the word out and I told them thank you for coming and that they must be careful of an element here that would do harm and I do not wish anything bad to happen to them but only to be enriched for their experience and to return home richer for it and in one piece...and again sending them love and feeling it back they left or tried to but I was crying inside for them and the ships came back for just a moment and then left. I did ask that anything in my body that was put there that does not serve the Love and Light I want removed and the next morning there was blood drops on my pillow and I thanked them..not knowing who they were
personally but knowing they were of the Love & Light was good enough for me. I was having faith in the Creator most of the time so that gave me hope at times in my life I needed it.
The most recent and latest odd thing was two people looking much like you and I in these body's came to me ..first a man then a woman ...
I knew I was being scanned they have an ability to keep you from doing it to them as I tried . It is how they read you by looking into your eyes. this is just an introduction of myself as I experienced things in my life and details are left out as it would turn into a book of which I'm not into ...but I am so thankful to have found the Ra material and the book Living the Law of One for myself as my one friend I could talk to left here 5 yrs ago and now I have you here in this digital room to talk to.
Thank you so very much and all the Love & Light that is mine to give I give to all at this sight.

" Drum till you become the Drum drumming" Barbara