Going against higher self

[Unbound]

Have you ever tried to send healing energy to her like reiki to see if that helps? Using the power of breath can help with that as well. It is her own negative energy state that is reflecting within yourself, especially if you don't use any form of shielding like a bubble of light or purifying flames or something of the like. Perhaps it would help the situation if you used some of the techniques you know to bring more light in to her heart?

I just need to believe that I can. I know how to. Sometimes I think I'd rather focus on more exciting matters like with my social memory complex. But she could use love and light. Maybe that would help with my anxiety.

It is possible much your anxiety isn't even yours, so I think it would certainly help. You have immense power, my friend, and it astounds me that you do not realize it. You actually have a huge capacity to radiate positive energy, healing energy, and you are using not even a quarter of your capability. I think you could not only help yourself, but help her, heal herself, and that it will lead to the liberation of you both from the pain that seems to be caught up in your relationship. You have much wisdom my friend, it is facing the deepest shadows that it is most needed and you have the power and the capacity to use it with love.

Is this not exactly the reason you have come here? To help heal the planet through the radiating of light, love and wisdom?