07-02-2014, 08:55 AM
At the beginning of my awakening, I was reading on the science of the Near-Death Experience and I was reading a book about real exorcisms written by a modern day Catholic priest.
So of course I was in fear ! Actually, I was having panic attacks for the first and only times of my life.
When I read the Law of One for the first time, I started having pressures on the forehead, I feared this could be the mark of the beast and stuff like that.
Even though I was thoroughly resonating with the spiritual material I was reading. Like Ra said, there is resistance at the edges, in this case the edge of a sub-density of 3d earth that I feel I have now crossed into. So if someone is not really ready to awaken, they will have multiple opportunities for falling back into "normal" life on earth.
Before my awakening, I had repressed all paranormal experiences I might have had before and had become a thoroughly scientific person.
Fear in my life is now much less than ever before, mostly because I started working on issues instead of repressing them.
I started following my intuition and where it led me. I quit a good paying job because I was unhappy with it and I am now quite happy with my current one. Stuff like that. GW, it's possible that you simply need to take a leap of faith.
When I feel issues with my heart, like palpitations or tightness and knows that a heart attack might be on the way someday, I fear dying before I am ready. I fear dying before my son is grown, while he still need me to be here. When this happens I try to tell myself that if this is the time, then it's because my son will be ok and he may even need to go through this experience of loosing a parent when young.
But I still see a deeper fear in these moments. There is something programmed I believe, maybe it is simply the survival instincts of the physical brain. I sense that this deeper fear of death cannot be reasoned with. It is simply part of the human experience.
I hope our stories will inspire you Gemini Wolf and wish you the best.
So of course I was in fear ! Actually, I was having panic attacks for the first and only times of my life.
When I read the Law of One for the first time, I started having pressures on the forehead, I feared this could be the mark of the beast and stuff like that.
Even though I was thoroughly resonating with the spiritual material I was reading. Like Ra said, there is resistance at the edges, in this case the edge of a sub-density of 3d earth that I feel I have now crossed into. So if someone is not really ready to awaken, they will have multiple opportunities for falling back into "normal" life on earth.Before my awakening, I had repressed all paranormal experiences I might have had before and had become a thoroughly scientific person.
Fear in my life is now much less than ever before, mostly because I started working on issues instead of repressing them.
I started following my intuition and where it led me. I quit a good paying job because I was unhappy with it and I am now quite happy with my current one. Stuff like that. GW, it's possible that you simply need to take a leap of faith.
When I feel issues with my heart, like palpitations or tightness and knows that a heart attack might be on the way someday, I fear dying before I am ready. I fear dying before my son is grown, while he still need me to be here. When this happens I try to tell myself that if this is the time, then it's because my son will be ok and he may even need to go through this experience of loosing a parent when young.
But I still see a deeper fear in these moments. There is something programmed I believe, maybe it is simply the survival instincts of the physical brain. I sense that this deeper fear of death cannot be reasoned with. It is simply part of the human experience.
I hope our stories will inspire you Gemini Wolf and wish you the best.
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