Been through hell.

[Phoenix]

Often it feels as if we go through hell when we are in fact resisting our guides and higher self. Some people resist enough to hurt themselves ending up in the hospital. The moment they give up and relax they find that things drastically improve.

Basically we can try so hard to do something that feels as if we have to try harder and harder, when it is simply not part of the program. Think of it as "they have something better in mind" for you.

I hope that's what it is!

I don't think that is what it is though. I've been wearing this crucifix around my neck but haven't internalised the lesson. I literally had the opportunity for things to go right and got a lot of good signs. But then under complex thoughts I made a decision that didn't forgive, and now I've been thrown to the gutter.

That is the story I've told myself. Perhaps it is the wrong one. There are opportunities to be positive though, all is not lost.