Feelings of unworthiness

[Steppingfeet]

So much of my own adult path has unfolded in that way, ascension scout. It's been a formula of:

- Life presents a challenge or new opportunity
- I don't feel feel qualified/prepared/capable of it
- Fear-nervousness-doubt experienced
- Do it anyway

And on the other side of the challenge, I've discovered two basic things:

1. The fear and anxiety were worse than the actual experience

2. These challenges brought out latent abilities and strengths of mine.

It is only by taking the leap and moving *through* into and through the unknown that I've discovered what I'm capable of, despite the doubt and struggle. The opportunities were, themselves, the training, so to speak; they were that which developed the self.

Let the experience be the teacher. You don't arrive to the teacher having mastered the lesson, you arrive eager to learn, to learn about *how* to be a leader and fulfill the needs of the position.

And a quote that one Tobey sent to me once during a moment of self-doubt and self-judgment:

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any seeker discovering in itself this complex of mental and mental/emotional distortions shall ponder the possible non-efficacy of judgment.

Trust yourself! Open yourself to the possibility that, no matter what the doubt whispers into your ear, you can do this.

GLB