06-09-2014, 02:27 PM
(This post was last modified: 06-09-2014, 02:28 PM by AnthroHeart.)
(06-09-2014, 01:38 PM)xise Wrote: You have trouble saying no to your mother. From personal experience I also had trouble saying no to my parents because I felt bad to do so. I think it applies to you.
Also, you've worried in the recent past that you would be harvested negative. I think you're clearly positive, but if you truly accepted yourself you wouldn't care if you were negative man. I don't care if I polarize negative. But I love so much, I don't think I will be. My journey is to discover myself.
If I am a spirit that enjoys controlling others and only loving the self, I'm 110% cool with that. I accept myself unconditionally. But I know myself. I love spreading the love. But I don't feel bad about my actions, regardless of their polarity. I just try to learn from my actions and learn how to discover more of my true self.
Yeah, I have trouble saying no to her because sometimes she gives me no option. She says clean out the dishwasher or I'm not making dinner. And it goes on like that. She never cleans it out herself, always asks me to.
I should be happy with whatever way I polarize. I think I'm going positive, but if it's negative, I don't want to be caught by surprise. Still, I don't think I've achieved a 95% STS to be harvestable negative. It was just a fear that negative beings or my own thoughts were feeding me.
I'd like to be able to say no to my mom, but sometimes she gives me no choice. It's not blackmale, but something different. It's not guilt either. She just says that she won't do something unless I serve her in some way. There have been times where I'll say no, and she usually just gets very upset in those cases. She once threatened to give my food to the dogs because I wouldn't do something for her.