(06-09-2014, 01:26 PM)Gemini Wolf Wrote: I have dreams where I'm murdered and I don't seem to mind it. Not sure if that means I don't love myself. Not sure how I'd react in real life, but I'd probably tell them just to shoot me rather than giving into fear and begging for my life. I'm not sure if I'd love the murderer more than I love my mom.
You have trouble saying no to your mother. From personal experience I also had trouble saying no to my parents because I felt bad to do so. I think it applies to you.
Also, you've worried in the recent past that you would be harvested negative. I think you're clearly positive, but if you truly accepted yourself you wouldn't care if you were negative man. I don't care if I polarize negative. But I love so much, I don't think I will be. My journey is to discover myself.
If I am a spirit that enjoys controlling others and only loving the self, I'm 110% cool with that. I accept myself unconditionally. But I know myself. I love spreading the love. But I don't feel bad about my actions, regardless of their polarity. I just try to learn from my actions and learn how to discover more of my true self.