06-04-2014, 05:12 PM
Hello Irpsit,
Many here answered You with weight focused on the non-material components which is most important in the "long run".
I would especially recommend to You to practice what Bring4th_GLB wrote:
I've done this myself more or less systematic and it is capable of giving You distance to Self and Your life with which You are "involved with" (it is Your life after all). And I mean by that not just being able to distance Your Self from emotions (which allows You to watch them closely and to be able to see more clearly its/they sources) but above all it may give You new perspective regarding Your life and available to You choices. Feeling of being entrapped may be reduced as well.
Therefore first step would be to gain distance to Your life/situation/problems/feelings/needs. To see clearly what IS and to establish what is it that You WANT.
You wrote about being rejected by Your Family. I'm sorry to read that. What I can write that it was done with dramatic situation for Them and most likely is not "genuine rejection". When One is Hurt and seeks help, his/her/they companion is often desperation. It's source of many decisions which are regretted.
You may be perceived as One OUTSIDE crisis/country and therefore One that was able to manage in life and One that could help if only wanted to. That is false image of You as we know form Your post. I don't think Your Family realize what Your situation is and currently They may be overwhelmed with Their own problems and has no "space" for Yours worriess and need of being Supported.
What I'm getting at is that nothing is "final" or "irreversible". Please find in Your heart Understanding for Them.
Now, because I'm one of the mind, I was trying to find some useful advice(s) for You at the level of Your material existence (HERE and NOW).
I thought that by "returning to Your country" You do not necessary have/need to go back to Your Family, which at this point may not be able to "Welcome You" as You would need it.
Because I didn't knew what "intentional community" is, I've searched for it in the internet and I've found this:
http://www.tamera.org/index.html
You may already know this but just in the case (to be on the safe side) I wanted to turn Your attention to it. It is community (as I understood it) alike to which You are in now but it is in Portugal.
I've read about it on Wikipedia:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tamera
Besides that - if it's something You already knew about and for some reasons resign from it - I would advice to reevaluate Your life. Please look back at Your choices and try to establish if they are same today as they were for You at the time of making them.
If You are interested in plants care/life, I can write that there are so many agricultural communities whom need support and young, intelligent people who would Support them with Their ability, knowledge, inspiration.
I myself comes from Poland and I if You reject above (Tamera) and will still have no idea for Your Self, please take a closer look at Poland. We are young country in the "western community" (25 years since change of political system) but we grow very rapidly and there's alot to do here. I can ensure You that You will be Welcome here and You will find People who will offer their hearts to You (but I'm sure Peoples like that are all over the world - I 'm just writing about that I know of).
Reagarding Your Beloved companion. You did not wrote much but I would like to ask if there is a balance between needs of You both? Does She minds Your needs as You minds Her? If yes, than a compromise would be possible (it requires the WILL of both sides to be reached). If there's no balance, please take a closer look at Your relationship, as One of You are hurting the Other.
At this point I would like to Apologize to You for allowing myself to be so blunt above regarding Your personal life. I didn't want to offend neither You nor Your Companion.
I wish You all Best. Be Strong my Other-Self
Many here answered You with weight focused on the non-material components which is most important in the "long run".
I would especially recommend to You to practice what Bring4th_GLB wrote:
Quote:Give yourself the inner space that you need. Find time to "step outside" the circumstances and be with nature, be with the Creator, be with yourself. The strength, energy, inspiration, and resources you need to cope with this situation are all available to you within.
I've done this myself more or less systematic and it is capable of giving You distance to Self and Your life with which You are "involved with" (it is Your life after all). And I mean by that not just being able to distance Your Self from emotions (which allows You to watch them closely and to be able to see more clearly its/they sources) but above all it may give You new perspective regarding Your life and available to You choices. Feeling of being entrapped may be reduced as well.
Therefore first step would be to gain distance to Your life/situation/problems/feelings/needs. To see clearly what IS and to establish what is it that You WANT.
You wrote about being rejected by Your Family. I'm sorry to read that. What I can write that it was done with dramatic situation for Them and most likely is not "genuine rejection". When One is Hurt and seeks help, his/her/they companion is often desperation. It's source of many decisions which are regretted.
You may be perceived as One OUTSIDE crisis/country and therefore One that was able to manage in life and One that could help if only wanted to. That is false image of You as we know form Your post. I don't think Your Family realize what Your situation is and currently They may be overwhelmed with Their own problems and has no "space" for Yours worriess and need of being Supported.
What I'm getting at is that nothing is "final" or "irreversible". Please find in Your heart Understanding for Them.
Now, because I'm one of the mind, I was trying to find some useful advice(s) for You at the level of Your material existence (HERE and NOW).
I thought that by "returning to Your country" You do not necessary have/need to go back to Your Family, which at this point may not be able to "Welcome You" as You would need it.
Because I didn't knew what "intentional community" is, I've searched for it in the internet and I've found this:
http://www.tamera.org/index.html
You may already know this but just in the case (to be on the safe side) I wanted to turn Your attention to it. It is community (as I understood it) alike to which You are in now but it is in Portugal.
I've read about it on Wikipedia:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tamera
Besides that - if it's something You already knew about and for some reasons resign from it - I would advice to reevaluate Your life. Please look back at Your choices and try to establish if they are same today as they were for You at the time of making them.
If You are interested in plants care/life, I can write that there are so many agricultural communities whom need support and young, intelligent people who would Support them with Their ability, knowledge, inspiration.
I myself comes from Poland and I if You reject above (Tamera) and will still have no idea for Your Self, please take a closer look at Poland. We are young country in the "western community" (25 years since change of political system) but we grow very rapidly and there's alot to do here. I can ensure You that You will be Welcome here and You will find People who will offer their hearts to You (but I'm sure Peoples like that are all over the world - I 'm just writing about that I know of).
Reagarding Your Beloved companion. You did not wrote much but I would like to ask if there is a balance between needs of You both? Does She minds Your needs as You minds Her? If yes, than a compromise would be possible (it requires the WILL of both sides to be reached). If there's no balance, please take a closer look at Your relationship, as One of You are hurting the Other.
At this point I would like to Apologize to You for allowing myself to be so blunt above regarding Your personal life. I didn't want to offend neither You nor Your Companion.
I wish You all Best. Be Strong my Other-Self