"The experience of no need to find the necessary emolument."

[Melissa]

Stop stretching things to cosmic, dramatic, exaggerated proportions.

You are not doing anything "wrong" you are doing something selfish and justifying it with "well unity is inherent so I can do whatever I want and I am right even though I think everything is right well except stuff I don't agree with" it's remarkable that through all your identity changes your attitude has remained the same.

Visions of the self anointed, a self congratulating way of looking at the world are always just crank bullshit dude, it's not something to aspire to. There are thousands of people doing what you are relating, I know many personally, they have vision and stuff, they don't stay that way for long lol

Used to be my thoughts exactly, up until a few months ago. But you know what's funny here fang, I also know people with visions, innovative ideas who, as they say; 'followed their passion', and currently find themselves thriving their asses off, not without any obstacles but they're thriving nonetheless. I keep meeting/bumping into more and more people who, imo, are living examples that it works; if you can be patient with yourself and take the time, put in the effort, go within and listen; find out what you love to do -and actually do it, this I find to be the scariest part- it's not really a job and you will inevitably thrive.