"The experience of no need to find the necessary emolument."

[Sagittarius]

If my wife is ever truly sacrificing herself to be in my presence and share food with me, I'll happily go on my way, move back to Texas and find a job that doesn't kill my health that lets me work for less than 25 hours a week. I'll rent a studio apartment and find a new set of social contacts.

I will never support a relationship where anyone has to sacrifice for me and I shall never have a son or daughter and tell him/her I have sacrificed for them. May they spit in my face if I ever say such hateful words to them. Instead, I will call them -- in all honesty -- blessings and ask nothing in return for what I will freely give them. There is no sacrifice in what is inherently loved in unity.

If you work a job that kills your health as you say to be with your wife how is that not sacrificial by your own admissions. If it didn't bother you, you wouldn't make a dramatic note about it as some sort of justification.

If you have to prove/justify your intention it's hardly freely given is it. Perhaps some recognition of your own words about the "idea bullets" expressing that this and this will make you happy sounds like a bullet to the throat of the now to me. There are no small discretions but reciprocally there are no large discretions.