05-30-2010, 12:35 PM
I have been very busy with life in general, but lately I've had the feeling that my eyes have been opened more and more. As in I've been swimming upwards through cloudy waters 5000ft underwater, and finally reaching close to the top. Suddenly feeling naked, and starting to see the omni directions that I can travel towards, instead of just blindly generally heading upwards.
I'm starting to feel all the lines of fate, not in the sense that I can tell the future of myself or something, but just more conscious that each action and thought creates a ripple in that direction.
The sad part about it all is, I haven't stopped wanting to help others, but it often feels empty, now that I'm close to the surface of the water with clearer visibility, and there's no big treasure that was waiting for me, from all the striving upwards through life and personal achievements.
Of course I still haven't gotten to point zero, finally reaching the surface of the water (2012?), and I am afraid that, what if it's just another disappointment?
So sometimes it's a struggle for me to wake up in the morning, playing my role in this pointless system. Even if I'm getting better and better at making money, it's just like making sandcastles in the kiddy sandbox, instead of building grand towers that reaches into the heavens, lifting up humanity as a whole.
But back to the main forum topic, inbetween all of this, the Energy is just insane. Not just in the energy that I feel in my body, but in the energy of potential that translates to fate and occurrences. I hope that in my continued striving for positivity in myself and those around me, will have better results to affect others as we get closer to 2012.
I'm starting to feel all the lines of fate, not in the sense that I can tell the future of myself or something, but just more conscious that each action and thought creates a ripple in that direction.
The sad part about it all is, I haven't stopped wanting to help others, but it often feels empty, now that I'm close to the surface of the water with clearer visibility, and there's no big treasure that was waiting for me, from all the striving upwards through life and personal achievements.
Of course I still haven't gotten to point zero, finally reaching the surface of the water (2012?), and I am afraid that, what if it's just another disappointment?
So sometimes it's a struggle for me to wake up in the morning, playing my role in this pointless system. Even if I'm getting better and better at making money, it's just like making sandcastles in the kiddy sandbox, instead of building grand towers that reaches into the heavens, lifting up humanity as a whole.
But back to the main forum topic, inbetween all of this, the Energy is just insane. Not just in the energy that I feel in my body, but in the energy of potential that translates to fate and occurrences. I hope that in my continued striving for positivity in myself and those around me, will have better results to affect others as we get closer to 2012.