05-21-2010, 01:46 PM
I've been in a strange mood for two weeks. I feel little or no enthusiasm for anything. I can't seem to be able to feel much joy or happiness in anything. Little things annoy me more than they usually do. Everything seems to get on my nerves. My patience has not been this low in a long time. I'm feeling bombarded by idiots and a$$holes all around me in public. I wish I could go live in the country somewhere away from people.
Usually I try to practice being a lighthouse and hope more people will awaken from the formal north american brainwashing they have recieved. Caring for nothing more than themselves and hardly thinking in general.
Now I feel angry. I think I'm starting to feel like the evil elite do about the public. No better than A bunch of chickens running around with their heads cut off, who can't tell their ass from their elbow. I look around and ask myself, "I woke up years ago, I'm not perfect but I'm trying. What is the majorities problem? Why can't they wake up and stop being so self centered and start giving a $hit?"
I travel on the metro (subway) often. I'm trying to get off at a station, but when the door opens I have to fight my way off because people are trying to push their way in before the people who have to get off actually get off. So rude, so uncaring, so dog eat dog. I find myself saying "f@#$ing cattle!!!" And they do act just like cattle. the lack of brains is also incredible. For instance, Metro shows up. Two colledge girls are standing right in front of the door as it opens. They are blocking the way for the people trying to get off. An older man pushes through them to get off and knocks shoulders with one girl while doing so. The girl, never realizing she is the one in the wrong, starts yelling "that F@#$%ing guy just hit me!". That kind of blatant ignorance just drives me crazy!
I've lived in this big city my whole life. I think it has finaly gotten the better of me. I think I'm losing compassion for the "sleepers" that seem to make up most of the population. I think I'm starting to hate them. I'm thinking of them as no better than stupid cattle that are less worthy than real animals. I have more respect for a barrel of monkeys.
I don't want to feel this way! I hope to bounce back into a better frame of mind soon, but it's tough this time. I try to look at the glass as half full. I try to thank the creator every day for "another day in the life", but it doesn't change the way I've been feeling lately. I look at all this catalyst and think, "what the hell am I going to do with all this?"...
Ok, I guess I'm finished ranting, lol.
Usually I try to practice being a lighthouse and hope more people will awaken from the formal north american brainwashing they have recieved. Caring for nothing more than themselves and hardly thinking in general.
Now I feel angry. I think I'm starting to feel like the evil elite do about the public. No better than A bunch of chickens running around with their heads cut off, who can't tell their ass from their elbow. I look around and ask myself, "I woke up years ago, I'm not perfect but I'm trying. What is the majorities problem? Why can't they wake up and stop being so self centered and start giving a $hit?"
I travel on the metro (subway) often. I'm trying to get off at a station, but when the door opens I have to fight my way off because people are trying to push their way in before the people who have to get off actually get off. So rude, so uncaring, so dog eat dog. I find myself saying "f@#$ing cattle!!!" And they do act just like cattle. the lack of brains is also incredible. For instance, Metro shows up. Two colledge girls are standing right in front of the door as it opens. They are blocking the way for the people trying to get off. An older man pushes through them to get off and knocks shoulders with one girl while doing so. The girl, never realizing she is the one in the wrong, starts yelling "that F@#$%ing guy just hit me!". That kind of blatant ignorance just drives me crazy!
I've lived in this big city my whole life. I think it has finaly gotten the better of me. I think I'm losing compassion for the "sleepers" that seem to make up most of the population. I think I'm starting to hate them. I'm thinking of them as no better than stupid cattle that are less worthy than real animals. I have more respect for a barrel of monkeys.
I don't want to feel this way! I hope to bounce back into a better frame of mind soon, but it's tough this time. I try to look at the glass as half full. I try to thank the creator every day for "another day in the life", but it doesn't change the way I've been feeling lately. I look at all this catalyst and think, "what the hell am I going to do with all this?"...
Ok, I guess I'm finished ranting, lol.