If you could only teach me one thing...

[Unbound]

Sometimes it is more comfortable to be at a distance from others, and especially when we perceive helping others to be a responsibility rather than an intention. I find that often we delve in to habitual patterns of feeling whereby we will get used to a certain state and the more we dwell in it the more comfortable it will become and the less enticing the idea of breaking that comfort will be.

I think maybe for lots of people serving others equals work and effort, and this effort is usually preferred to be spent in other ways if the idea of serving others seems to be too much of a burden.

For me, I stopped 'trying' to help others and instead sought to find the ways my own natural flow can also be used to assist others. It is hard though because sometimes the desire to serve is greater than the perceived desire to receive service from the other and I think that may also create some guilt for individuals who actually do desire to serve, but don't always see that there are opportunities to do so.

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I believe adept is inherently yellow ray, if one is drawn to that line then integrity and self-sufficiency (like another poster pointed out) are paramount. You seem to be aware of deficiency in this area yourself, but still ask questions and/or approval from others. You seem to have concluded your original intent was wrong and the world was right, and maybe developed some issues that way. There is no infringement of free will if the assistance is given in response to a request, only if there is paternalism and holier-than-thou attitudes.

This is a great post and I think actually brings some light to this discussion on guilt and intention. Perhaps it is that when we do not agree with someone else or have a desire to share our own opinion we take this as a questioning of our own intentions and we challenge ourselves with whether or not we actually do have good intentions. I think this can be a deep trap for many spiritually oriented individuals because there are all sorts of memes that try to say this or that action is the 'most positive' and so when we perceive ourselves to be doing other than these habitually learned meme patterns we attack ourselves as being out of line with our "highest intention".

Pro-tip: It is okay to be confused, and make mistakes, and to not always be positive. In most cases honesty will reveal that this is part of the natural process for many people. We perhaps shouldnt be so concerned with "flawless living" which I know, for myself as a perfectionist, is difficult aha

The key to balance may then be seen in the unstudied, spontaneous, and honest response of entities toward experiences, thus using experience to the utmost, then applying the balancing exercises and achieving the proper attitude for the most purified spectrum of energy center manifestation in violet ray. This is why the brilliance or rotational speed of the energy centers is not considered above the balanced aspect or violet-ray manifestation of an entity in regarding harvestability; for those entities which are unbalanced, especially as to the primary rays, will not be capable of sustaining the impact of the love and light of intelligent infinity to the extent necessary for harvest.