If you could only teach me one thing...

[Parsons]

Aha Well I definitely agree with that, and it is a very relevant lesson for me right now, that's for sure. I feel that this is my challenge right now.

In third density, at this time, those clinging to orange ray have a much more complex system of distortions through which orange ray is manifested. This is somewhat complicated. We shall endeavor to simplify.

The appropriate true color for third density is, as you have ascertained, yellow. However, the influences of the true color, green, acting upon yellow-ray entities have caused many entities to revert to the consideration of self rather than the stepping forward into consideration of other-self or green ray. This may not be seen to be of a negatively polarized nature, as the negatively polarized entity is working very intensively with the deepest manifestations of yellow-ray group energies, especially the manipulations of other-self for service to self. Those reverting to orange ray, and we may add these are many upon your plane at this time, are those who feel the vibrations of true color green and, therefore, respond by rejecting governmental and societal activities as such and seek once more the self.

However, not having developed the yellow ray properly so that it balances the personal vibratory rates of the entity, the entity then is faced with the task of further activation and balancing of the self in relation to the self, thus the orange-ray manifestations at this space/time nexus.

Thus true color orange is that which it is, without difference. However, the manifestations of this or any ray may be seen to be most various depending upon the vibratory levels and balances of the mind/body or mind/body/spirit complexes which are expressing these energies.

I feel like I am having difficulties opening up to the idea of being part of something and having any kind of influence or presence in a social sense and that is why I may be reverting to orange ray blockages with regards to the establishment of my personal identity in this world. It seems I keep trying to change my identity in order to try and fit it to the world, rather than just giving the world that which I am and this is indeed an issue with vulnerability. When I was younger I was very fearful because of what I perceived in myself as the intention to bring greater good in to the world and I believed this would be at the cost of free will of others and I felt that I would get a lot of angry, negative reactions towards me for it. Indeed, I was, in ways, somewhat cast out of the social group I had been a part of at this time and maybe that is why I am so reluctant now to enter in to the social arena again.

This is my exact challenge right now. I'm not sure what to do either.