RE: Simple Archetypes, Polarities and Paths: Final Revision

[AnthroHeart]

I haven't held sway to the belief that sto is radiating and sts absorbing, because many times it felt like I was absorbing energy when I clearly didn't feel sts. I couldn't stop the absorption.

I think the radiation/absorption thing is the net energy effect over time of the being, not something in any given moment. If you take a very strict definition of radiation/absorption as you would imply GW, then any positive entity that absorbs healing energy that is sent to it via reiki or other transfers would depolarize. Similarly, technically an energy transfer is in part an absorption and radiation, and yet positive entities can achieve much polarization through sexual energy transfers. So I don't think that positives can never receive or absorption energy; it's just the net amount of all the energy radiated or absorbed that reflects sto or sts.

You might have felt incoming energy from a guide or other positive entity trying to assist in your healing. I know I've received such healing energy in the past. Receiving healing energy is not a bad thing!

Your insight makes sense. I've definitely felt healing energy from a guide, which I've allowed myself to absorb. I've also sent out energy into the world, through the crystal grid, among other methods.

It's a good think that Reiki does not depolarize. It's a very STO form. I agree that receiving healing energy is not a bad thing. I've needed it much and still need it, now perhaps more than ever. It's funny, because I took my antidepressant this morning whereas this whole week I forgot to take it. And I feel a bit more down today than usual. Or let's say I feel a little sick. My psych meds make me feel dizzy, to where when I rest my head the room spins. Continued thoughts also of wanting to graduate, and wondering about that, and how that will go.

But right now I don't feel any healing energy coming from a guide. I don't really feel empty either. I feel full, but it's not healing energy. It's something else. I think in all it will be ok. My life has been one big adventure. I can't wait till the afterlife when Ra can explain to me about my spiritual experiences. I've had some strange ones.