Moving from a partially awakened to a Fully awakened entity

[Steppingfeet]

Ra mentioned several times about wanderers who partially awaken.

One of the recent posts in another thread spoke about the discomfort felt by partially awoken wanderers and their desire to just return home.

This discomfort has been a challenge for me especially recently.
Physical discomfort, relational discomfort (I used to be more charming and attract friendly interactions), spiritual discomfort, energetic discomfort, etc.

What must be done to fully awaken??? I don't want to wallow in discomfort and I don't want to return home just yet.

I like Peregrine's approach of attempting to analyze and identify what "awakening" means to you. Does awakening denote the complete elimination of all pain? Or does awakening indicate the stepping into a larger perspective that, in other words, makes the large pain small; makes the many discomforts - physical, emotional, or otherwise - ripples on the surface of a deep and abiding consciousness of stillness and peace?

Regarding pain, Eckhart Tolle offers an interesting insight about root, core pain, that Pain which stems from the separate self:

Tolle: "Basically, all emotions are modifications of one primordial, undifferentiated emotion that has its origin in the loss of awareness of who you are beyond name and form. Because of its undifferentiated nature, it is hard to find a name that precisely describes this emotion. "Fear" comes close, but apart from a continuous sense of threat, it also includes a deep sense of abandonment and incompleteness. It may be best to use a term that is as undifferentiated as that basic emotion and simply call it "pain."

One of the main tasks of the mind is to fight or remove that emotional pain, which is one of the reasons for its incessant activity, but all it can ever achieve is to cover it up temporarily. In fact, the harder the mind struggles to get rid of the pain, the greater the pain. The mind can never find the solution, nor can it afford to allow you to find the solution, because it is itself an intrinsic part of the "problem." Imagine a chief of police trying to find an arsonist when the arsonist is the chief of police.

You will not be free of that pain until you cease to derive your sense of self from identification with the mind, which is to say from ego. The mind is then toppled from its place of power and Being reveals itself as your true nature."

Most who have consciously embarked upon the quest to know themselves have discovered this quintessential pain in varying degrees of depth. It manifests in a million ways, but at its core is, I think, simply a massive energetic response to life that says "NO". It energetically contracts the self in a throbbing, life-squeezing, identity-denying "NO". It rejects the authenticity of self, the rightness of self, the goodness and truth of the self, and the true nature of the self.

Exploring its depths in my own case, I've found my experience matches Tolle's description exactly: "...apart from a continuous sense of threat, it also includes a deep sense of abandonment and incompleteness."

Without any seeming cause, and without being able to link it to any particular circumstances in my life present or past, this pain has buried and consumed me at times. A raw, energetic killer that seems, at times, wholly unbearable and inescapable.

You are not this pain, however. And, though physical distortions may persist, with the patience Xise recommended, and with the light heart, and with exercise of disciplined will and faith over the long term, you can heal, you can realize who you are, and find that pain being incrementally transmuted, by virtue of your own process, into loving, conscious awareness.

Pain is also an excellent motivator, I might add.

With love/light, Gary