So I am in a predicament...

[xise]

It's very important to cultivate a strong and consistent habit of self-acceptance and non-judgment towards the self in spiritual work, otherwise these judgments can act as inroads for greeting from our friends.

I've started meditating on self-love, and it's been hard at first since I'm not used to doing so. It feels fake, and I can't seem to generate any feelings that would support the self-acceptance. The negs had me feeling down on myself, as if I wasn't worthy. It's hard to overcome this mode of thinking.

Keep trying, you'll get there. Make sure to do things to show yourself love as well.