So I will be taking on complete trance channeling...

[AnthroHeart]

I'm thinking that all that time that I thought I was working with Ra, I was instead working with a negative being, posing as Ra. That would be the last 3 years of contacts I have had. They have been nothing but fear based, and I was defiant towards others. Thought people were against me. I heard things and saw "Proof", which was another negative feature. When I asked Ra to kill me, I had an experience almost right away of being in the sun. I don't know if that was negative being or not.

But I have not been focused on service to others. I have not loved others like I should. That's why my schizophrenic experiences have landed me in jail, twice. And in a mental hospital three times. It started 3 years ago when I first came across the Ra material and wanted to work with Ra. The episode of building a galaxy and a Universe could also have been negative. I have been very naive in my seeking. Easy it was to fool me.

I'm not saying you'll have the same experience. But I ran into these problems where I couldn't tell reality from illusion, simply from focusing on Ra and seeking them. That was why I imagine they told m to stop seeking them. I'm glad I didn't turn my soul over to them.

I still adore Ra very much, it's just that I've been easily taken advantage of.