10-14-2013, 11:48 PM
(This post was last modified: 10-15-2013, 03:34 AM by Bring4th_Austin.)
After having been "blocked" to the nature of my own past lives for the entirety of my seeking, and having lost any real interest in them at all, a spark was lit again after a moving visit to a psychic. The information she shared with me is dubious at best; I'll only rely on her information so far as I can relate to it and grow from it.
However, the idea seemed to open up something inside of me that made possible an experience I had a couple weeks ago regarding past lives. As I was riding in a car through some beautiful Kentucky countryside, and particularly beautiful area moved my consciousness in such a way that I felt I was being pulled to remember something. Riding as a passenger I was able to just let go and allow myself to be taken away on a current of thought that became one of the most intense streams of thought I've ever experienced, all relating to a past life I supposedly lived in this area during the Civil War. It was the closest thing I've ever experienced to a real 'download' that people sometimes talk about.
To make a really long story short, I received information about being a man in Kentucky that was torn by the war. Fighting for the Confederacy, I felt an intense internal struggle because I realized the mentality of both sides of the war and saw two sides, seemingly irreconcilable, yet I was somehow able to agree with both ideas and fighting against brothers who I agreed with was intensely traumatic for me. Being in Kentucky was supposedly no accident for the incarnation, as it was symbolic of the struggle between North and South, being highly contentious, the state almost representing my own mentality at the time. An internal struggle in my mind, played out in the state that I was in.
I then "received" information relating this supposed past lifetime to my present one, shedding light on my own struggle in this lifetime with usually being able to see both sides of an issue, and making sense of some of my own intense and often painful struggles I suffer in my mind due to a schism of two viewpoints that are seemingly irreconcilable yet somehow both existing simultaneously in my mind. I received information about how this might be used as a tool for growth and hints on how to approach this struggle in myself so I could bridge certain gaps, which in return would allow bridges to be built within the planetary mind and, consequently, possible within our space/time reality. I got a sense of the real power I had as an individual to offer my personal harmony and understanding to the planetary mind and understand how this really could make a difference in the real world. It was an extremely intense and moving experience for me.
Who knows if the lifetime was real, or if it was a convenient metaphor to help me grasp my own nature? Could be both. Surely we create allegory and myth in order to make sense of what we are offered from the mysterious origins of our mind, but I believe that we live out these stories inevitably. I think it's totally possible that this was a real lifetime of mine. To lend some support of this fact, I was oddly obsessed with the Civil War as a child. As soon as I learned about it I felt drawn to it and it felt familiar to me.
Either way, whether it was real or not is not really important as I am able to use the experience of knowing about this past life as a mechanism for growth in my current life. I think that's the most important part about exploring past lives: how can this be of use to us now?
However, the idea seemed to open up something inside of me that made possible an experience I had a couple weeks ago regarding past lives. As I was riding in a car through some beautiful Kentucky countryside, and particularly beautiful area moved my consciousness in such a way that I felt I was being pulled to remember something. Riding as a passenger I was able to just let go and allow myself to be taken away on a current of thought that became one of the most intense streams of thought I've ever experienced, all relating to a past life I supposedly lived in this area during the Civil War. It was the closest thing I've ever experienced to a real 'download' that people sometimes talk about.
To make a really long story short, I received information about being a man in Kentucky that was torn by the war. Fighting for the Confederacy, I felt an intense internal struggle because I realized the mentality of both sides of the war and saw two sides, seemingly irreconcilable, yet I was somehow able to agree with both ideas and fighting against brothers who I agreed with was intensely traumatic for me. Being in Kentucky was supposedly no accident for the incarnation, as it was symbolic of the struggle between North and South, being highly contentious, the state almost representing my own mentality at the time. An internal struggle in my mind, played out in the state that I was in.
I then "received" information relating this supposed past lifetime to my present one, shedding light on my own struggle in this lifetime with usually being able to see both sides of an issue, and making sense of some of my own intense and often painful struggles I suffer in my mind due to a schism of two viewpoints that are seemingly irreconcilable yet somehow both existing simultaneously in my mind. I received information about how this might be used as a tool for growth and hints on how to approach this struggle in myself so I could bridge certain gaps, which in return would allow bridges to be built within the planetary mind and, consequently, possible within our space/time reality. I got a sense of the real power I had as an individual to offer my personal harmony and understanding to the planetary mind and understand how this really could make a difference in the real world. It was an extremely intense and moving experience for me.
Who knows if the lifetime was real, or if it was a convenient metaphor to help me grasp my own nature? Could be both. Surely we create allegory and myth in order to make sense of what we are offered from the mysterious origins of our mind, but I believe that we live out these stories inevitably. I think it's totally possible that this was a real lifetime of mine. To lend some support of this fact, I was oddly obsessed with the Civil War as a child. As soon as I learned about it I felt drawn to it and it felt familiar to me.
Either way, whether it was real or not is not really important as I am able to use the experience of knowing about this past life as a mechanism for growth in my current life. I think that's the most important part about exploring past lives: how can this be of use to us now?
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The only frontier that has ever existed is the self.
The only frontier that has ever existed is the self.
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