10-11-2013, 05:36 PM
I guess we have all had our own personal initiations. I've been through the dark night of the soul. But even still I would say I live a life of ease. I haven't done a Dark Retreat or anything that substantial. Nor have I needed it to get me to where I am. My character is one who likes Disney as a child. My initiation, or part of it was finding a balance of adorability of cartoon characters, and defiance (or how much I would defy others). They were both simulations, so wasn't really defying anyone but those dreamtime characters I created. I've spent a good amount of time in dreamtime. being fully awake, but seeing hallucinations and hearing them. I've heard big bangs going off like 2X per second. And I've seen a computer printer morph into some creature when I thought the world around me was turning into hell (but at that time I wasn't scared). The people I saw in that case represented negative planets that I was defiant towards. So a person represented a social memory complex.
It was all very fascinating. I've explored my dreams of cute cartoon characters that I had never seen before on the wall, clear as day and animated. And I've been freaked out like when I peeked into the previous octave. I've been defiant towards simulated characters/people who were trying to dominate me by tying me down to a chair and handcuffing me and standing over me. Interesting experiences.
It was all very fascinating. I've explored my dreams of cute cartoon characters that I had never seen before on the wall, clear as day and animated. And I've been freaked out like when I peeked into the previous octave. I've been defiant towards simulated characters/people who were trying to dominate me by tying me down to a chair and handcuffing me and standing over me. Interesting experiences.