Gem, you may not be aware at how grateful your creator is for everything that you have done for it. I can guarantee that YOU are the very polished gem that the creator is receiving, but continuing to polish as time continues. You may not realize, but with each polish and cut, you are becoming more, despite feeling that you are becoming less. I wish I could even begin to impart on you the love that I can perceive the father has for you personally, but it seems as if the problem is that you don't realize your own desire to feel unworthy. I know that you actually want it, but subconsciously, you fear what would happen if you "let go" and allowed the love to just come forcefully streaming in.
Regardless, you have a special connection, one that will break through when you are ready. He has accepted every gift, but has turned each of those gifts into potential for you.
This is a harsh world, and many of us are having difficulty staying here now, in these heavy meat-bags. The lessening yellow is being replaced by a growing green that cannot be properly utilized by these chemical bodies, and the pain is more obvious in every day. Don't let the pain of the cycle's end allow you to believe that you have been abandoned by the father. The sun never sleeps, although the clouds cover the sun and the Earth moves to conceal it. The light is never gone, though difficult to see as it may become. Such is his love for you.
I should note that I find it difficult myself sometimes to feel as if the creator loves me, but when he wants to nurture others, he always provides at that time enough for myself and some to share, so that I may give to the other, and then have some left over as well. The more love I give to others, the more comes in return for the same purpose.
I'm not sure how this works with thought-forms, but maybe there is something to be said about dedicating it in service to another in the name of the Creator. It would be something that he could easily do himself with his infinite wisdom of where it could be put to use, but would be more meaningful coming through your choice of where it goes, for it then has your intention on it, and your will. These two things are already bound to you in order to create the thought-form to begin with.
Ultimately, I don't know, because I'm in the process of learning myself, as we all are, but what I DO know is that you are both acceptable and accepted, as are your works of creation.
Regardless, you have a special connection, one that will break through when you are ready. He has accepted every gift, but has turned each of those gifts into potential for you.
This is a harsh world, and many of us are having difficulty staying here now, in these heavy meat-bags. The lessening yellow is being replaced by a growing green that cannot be properly utilized by these chemical bodies, and the pain is more obvious in every day. Don't let the pain of the cycle's end allow you to believe that you have been abandoned by the father. The sun never sleeps, although the clouds cover the sun and the Earth moves to conceal it. The light is never gone, though difficult to see as it may become. Such is his love for you.
I should note that I find it difficult myself sometimes to feel as if the creator loves me, but when he wants to nurture others, he always provides at that time enough for myself and some to share, so that I may give to the other, and then have some left over as well. The more love I give to others, the more comes in return for the same purpose.
I'm not sure how this works with thought-forms, but maybe there is something to be said about dedicating it in service to another in the name of the Creator. It would be something that he could easily do himself with his infinite wisdom of where it could be put to use, but would be more meaningful coming through your choice of where it goes, for it then has your intention on it, and your will. These two things are already bound to you in order to create the thought-form to begin with.
Ultimately, I don't know, because I'm in the process of learning myself, as we all are, but what I DO know is that you are both acceptable and accepted, as are your works of creation.