can Ra ever be channeled again?

[AnthroHeart]

My mind tends to expand out of control as best I can put it. I once thought I was talking with God, and he told me to do bad stuff, and I did, which I later regretted, but have since forgiven myself for. Carried away is part of it, though there's probably a better word for it. I get excited for what I am experiencing much of the time, and begin to take my experiences at face value. Later then it turns out what I learned was incorrect or not what I thought. For instance I didn't really see the previous Octave I don't think. It's hard to put into words what I saw, it was more a feeling of things moving around.