Fear and Self-service

[Cyclops]

Is there any form of service to self that isn't based on fear? I hear tones in my ears usually corresponding to thoughts I'm having either to that of the service to others (right) or service to self (left), or so I believe. My question is that, if you were to open to 4th dimensional thinking, fourth dimensional powers even, would learning how to develop those powers be a service to self? Even if I swear my soul would only use those powers for good?

I mean it would seem like it is a service to self. One must be attuned and disciplined to focus energy from either polarity. But service to self can help one be of service to others in the longer run, right? You have to know and train yourself before you can effectively help others. Am I wrong in this perception?

I try to live life seeing others as mirrors of myself, and treat them as I would like to be treated...but after a year's worth of research (with the L/L books being my first stepping stones into this brave new world) and seeing with my own eyes, magical, time-sensetive "coincidences" happen, I know it is all real. I'm polarizing to the service to others, and I can feel the confidence and strength of the Creator flowing through me at times, but I'm hesitant to further my psychic training if the mere development of these powers is...well, evil. Or is my perception of service-to-self being evil misinterpreted?

Thank you to whoever can help. Honestly, God bless.

In my opinion it is the opposite of that, if fear is what you are feeling then you have closed your mind, you cling to that separation that that path will not lead back to the One. But they all do... and power is much different then we can perceive, all are worthy to have it and the choice on how to use it is what is polarizing.

Q'uo Special Meditation February 12, 2006
An excerpt on the adept/seeker of the one and the gaining of spiritual power.

Discontent and worry is the one perturbation that will most effectively destroy the energy of light. Consequently, as you work to be more and more comfortable within your own skin, you are not being selfish. You are not taking too much time for yourself. You are, rather, working in service to the Creator and to others by clearing your own energy system. It is not selfish to do this work but rather of service to others.

It is a very difficult tangle within the mind to many service-to-others oriented entities to be able to set aside the time and the attention for oneself that is indeed needed for you to keep clear and useful and an instrument for spirit. Nevertheless, you may have to take that time, five minutes at a time, around the edges of the busy day. But we assure that if you choose those five minutes carefully and if you pour yourself into those five minutes, you shall create magic aplenty. You shall not run out of time, for you can do much in a small space, magically speaking.

You are attempting to take that which your culture has taught you is worthless: your thoughts, your feelings, your hunches, and your intuition and to glean from them the information that your culture has not respected or honored. In doing so, you are bereft of the tools comfortable to one who deals with the mind. For in doing magical work or in attempting to create one’s focus for being increasingly magical you are moving constantly to move from head to heart and from thinking to knowing.

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Second let me mention that there is indeed a power which is had on both paths, yet the essence of this is much different.

Q'uo Special Meditation February 12, 2006

That which is magical within you awaits your choice. Let us look then at the nature of the choice before you and the resources with which you meet it.

In each moment your choice is to accept yourself as the self that your culture and your environment suggest that you are or to accept yourself as something far more articulated. It may seem grandiose to those who like the idea of being powerless and without responsibility in any ethical sense. To those who are thirsty for the one infinite Creator, it seems a positive blessing to be pulled forward by the desire to seek. Those who wish to become more than they know are those who would choose to become co-creators with the forces placed into motion at the time of birth.

Q'uo Special Meditation February 12, 2006

[quote]When you choose to accelerate the pace of your spiritual evolution, you are activating a magical portion of yourself. That is the nature of your choice. It is perfectly all right to choose to rest and refrain from the practice of the recognition of the power of your own being. When you have gathered your strength and wish to step forward upon your journey, you are indeed the fool. Whether or not you feel that you need baggage, you pick up your self, your energies and your intentions and you leave the familiar safe and sheltered valley of your past understanding.

Q'uo Special Meditation February 12, 2006

[quote]We assure you that, in the process of forming the intention, at each moment that you form such an intention to seek and to serve the one infinite Creator, to heighten your devotion to the one infinite Creator, or to increase your passion for developing your will in order to maximize your service to the Creator, you have done work that, in a magical sense, is highly polarizing regardless of the actual outcome of your intention.

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Finally service to self oriented catalyst or events or lessons are the ones which greatly increase the opposite choice which is service to others.

Ra Session 97 of the Law of One September 15, 1982

I am Ra. There was a serious pain flare. We may now continue.

The nature of polarity is interesting in that those experiences offered to the Significator as positive frequently become recorded as productive of biases which may be seen to be negative, whereas the fruit of those experiences apparently negative is frequently found to be helpful in the development of the service-to-others bias. As this is perhaps the guiding characteristic of that which the mind processes and records, these symbols of polarity have thusly been placed.

You may note that the hands of the central image indicate the appropriate bias for right and left-hand working; that is, the right hand gestures in service-to-others, offering its light outward. The left hand attempts to absorb the power of the spirit and point it for its use alone.

http://www.lawofone.info/images/tarot5.jpg (the negative catalyst offered as fruit symbolized as the small black being to the right hand side of the entity within third density to accentuate his chosen path, and vice versa if he chooses the left hand path)