04-08-2010, 03:18 AM
Wow, this is a lot here and a lot to think about. Thank you.
I was thinking of another experience, and I think this describes what happened there now. I think I might know what happened now.
The interview for my current job, of which I knew would change the path of my entire life, everything I knew and my entire life hinged on this interview. If I got it, I would have to move to D.C., hundreds of miles away from my family, living without a net, in a new place with an unknown culture, not knowing anybody, vs. failing the interview, and returning to my family, and taking a completely different path.
I knew this was important, and I prayed about it, because I was worried I would mentally lockup during the interview, I asked God to help me if I got stuck.
Well, during the interview, what do you know, my brain locked up, but at that very instant, I kept talking. I knew I was no longer sure what to say, had no idea what to do, but I kept talking, I realized what I was doing, that it was no longer me, and I knew to keep out of it, not to interrupt what was going on, I could, if I wanted to, but I knew not to, I knew it was not me speaking, it was the help I had asked for.
Form what I read here then, at that moment, it was my Higher self speaking, (I guess, in a way, I was channeling it). I always attributed this to God intervening, but this may be that as was stated, that moment I put on that 'magical personality' that Q'uo refers to. My conscious self stepping to the side, about to crash everything, but because I asked for the help, and I free will allowed it to come through, I got the help I needed, the instant I needed it.
That 'moment' only lasted as long as was needed then was gone. Just like what was described here, not in a perpetual state, but as needed.
As an aside, it is because of that incident I wanted to learn more about channeling after I learned what channeling was, because I felt a moment in my life where I clearly knew I had done it by the description of what channeling was. In some ways, I may not only be out here in D.C. because of that moment, I may also be doing this seeking and searching because of it.....
It's interesting, I as I am writing this, I would have expected my self to feel all out of whack to say that I was accessing a part of my self rather then God, but as I sit here, I am calm, as if I know this is correct, and am not all freaky inside about "hey, your not saying God didn't do this are you?" type of internal reaction I would expect.
Maybe this is why this jumped to the surface all of a sudden, because many things in my life I would have ascribed to 'god', were really a portion of my self, my Higher Self, guiding me, and because of my recent change, I needed to come to realize, for these moments in my life that have been so pivotal, what actually was going on.
My realizing this was needed to be able to 'orient the needle' of my life again, to see how guidance works outside the world of religion, and where and how the help I have always gotten in my life worked and came from. I had been praying for the Truth, I really wanted to know things. I am realizing I did get my answer, I just didn't realize I needed to strip off the blinders to see the world this way to understand it.
So, in some ways, I did know what Higher Self was, I just didn't equate it all together, and was ascribing it to 'god'. Like was said, 'Remember what we already know' This indeed seems the situation.
Thank you for helping me understand this! Love to all of you.
I was thinking of another experience, and I think this describes what happened there now. I think I might know what happened now.
The interview for my current job, of which I knew would change the path of my entire life, everything I knew and my entire life hinged on this interview. If I got it, I would have to move to D.C., hundreds of miles away from my family, living without a net, in a new place with an unknown culture, not knowing anybody, vs. failing the interview, and returning to my family, and taking a completely different path.
I knew this was important, and I prayed about it, because I was worried I would mentally lockup during the interview, I asked God to help me if I got stuck.
Well, during the interview, what do you know, my brain locked up, but at that very instant, I kept talking. I knew I was no longer sure what to say, had no idea what to do, but I kept talking, I realized what I was doing, that it was no longer me, and I knew to keep out of it, not to interrupt what was going on, I could, if I wanted to, but I knew not to, I knew it was not me speaking, it was the help I had asked for.
Form what I read here then, at that moment, it was my Higher self speaking, (I guess, in a way, I was channeling it). I always attributed this to God intervening, but this may be that as was stated, that moment I put on that 'magical personality' that Q'uo refers to. My conscious self stepping to the side, about to crash everything, but because I asked for the help, and I free will allowed it to come through, I got the help I needed, the instant I needed it.
That 'moment' only lasted as long as was needed then was gone. Just like what was described here, not in a perpetual state, but as needed.
As an aside, it is because of that incident I wanted to learn more about channeling after I learned what channeling was, because I felt a moment in my life where I clearly knew I had done it by the description of what channeling was. In some ways, I may not only be out here in D.C. because of that moment, I may also be doing this seeking and searching because of it.....
It's interesting, I as I am writing this, I would have expected my self to feel all out of whack to say that I was accessing a part of my self rather then God, but as I sit here, I am calm, as if I know this is correct, and am not all freaky inside about "hey, your not saying God didn't do this are you?" type of internal reaction I would expect.
Maybe this is why this jumped to the surface all of a sudden, because many things in my life I would have ascribed to 'god', were really a portion of my self, my Higher Self, guiding me, and because of my recent change, I needed to come to realize, for these moments in my life that have been so pivotal, what actually was going on.
My realizing this was needed to be able to 'orient the needle' of my life again, to see how guidance works outside the world of religion, and where and how the help I have always gotten in my life worked and came from. I had been praying for the Truth, I really wanted to know things. I am realizing I did get my answer, I just didn't realize I needed to strip off the blinders to see the world this way to understand it.
So, in some ways, I did know what Higher Self was, I just didn't equate it all together, and was ascribing it to 'god'. Like was said, 'Remember what we already know' This indeed seems the situation.
Thank you for helping me understand this! Love to all of you.