are you doing enough? (to serve)

[Aaron]

Aaron, what I understand that you are trying to say is that you are trying to put the work itself (with the self) in different rays. Please correct me if I am wrong in this understanding of your thoughts. If this is indeed what you are trying to say, then I find it personally not useful for me.

What we have been discussing here is wise attitude or detachment to the outcome when we are doing manifested actions/service. This detachment is essential if one is trying to polarize in the positive way. And then I asked plenum what he thought about this detachment in regards to work with the self.

Through this thread I, personally, came to the conclusion that perhaps this question that I asked and these thoughts that I had were maybe confusing and not helpful. It is well to relax sometimes I think and just remember to breath from all the work done with the self. You know, take a drink and enjoy the creation. But there is still work that needs efforts, that needs to be done.

Whether one then is attached to the results of this work, well... Maybe it is still a good question? Or maybe it is unnecessary, confusing question. I don't know. But speaking in slightly different concepts, considering the Archetypical blueprint in our deeper mind, we have this:

"Again, doubt not that which the coin is called to represent, for does not the Magus strive to achieve through the manifested world?"

So, the Matrix of the Mind is striving to achieve something through the manifested world. What is it? My belief is that this is the result or attachment or manifestation that I am trying to understand here. There is a *desired* mind complex attitude which I want to bring into manifestation, and speaking of detachment/attachement to this manifestation is perhaps just confusing?

In the same Archetype we have also this:

"The folded wing in this image is intended to suggest that just as the Matrix figure, the Magician, cannot act without reaching its wingèd spirit, so neither can the spirit fly lest it be *released into conscious manifestation and fructified thereby*."

At this point, it seems I can no longer help you. Good luck finding whatever it is you're seeking, whether it's attention and validation from Ra or something else. Just don't hurt anyone else on your way.