are you doing enough? (to serve)

[Ankh]

I've learnt to undo this particular expectation in myself over the years. High standards are always great, and one should always do the best one can, and always aim to improve, but its the effort that is appreciated, not the end result. With that more 'balanced attitude' in place, I think I tend to be much less judgemental of my efforts these days than I once did.

that last paragraph reminds me of something Mr Ra wrote:

(the thought was given in response to 'sweeping dust', but, as always, they offer a universal philosophical point from the example:

96.4 May we note that just as each entity strives in each moment to become more nearly one with the Creator but falls short, just so is physical spotlessness striven for but not achieved.

In each case the purity of intention and thoroughness of manifestation are appreciated. The variance between the attempt and the goal is never noted and may be considered unimportant.

it is an accepting, loving, and appreciative thought that serves as a useful balancing position to the nature of self-judgement that we might have about our efforts not achieving as much as we originally desired.

I've been contemplating this part since you wrote it. And thank you for these words, my brother.

A question: do you think that the above, what you wrote, relates to the workings with the self too? For instance, Icaro and I have been discussing in this thread how imbalances in the self can only be balanced/corrected in space/time. So, if the efforts are made, and the will is there, but it ain't just working for the moment, do you think that the above attitude applies to this working with the self too?

Either way, I want to thank you for your reply. It made me to reach another level in balancing exercises, and seeing the self as complete and whole, and not judging myself based on the roles I judged to be. /

I was only thinking in terms of the self when I read that quote, and it made sense to me. Maybe in lower densities, the striving to become one with the Creator is manifested as action more than beingness. And in higher densities, especially 6th, I'm thinking that it's related to the social memory complex refining its balances as one self, seeking within itself to realize total oneness with the Creator, to merge its beingness with the Creator.

It's my thinking that the more a 6th density social memory complex refines this balance, the more it's able to manifest itself in third density as one single, balanced self containing all (like Buddha) instead of many many wanderers, which are just facets of that one self anyway. If that theory is true, then it that quote would definitely apply to the workings with the self in a third density incarnation. I feel like the striving for the merging with the Creator begins as an internal process anyway, whether in third density incarnation or not.

Hey Aaron,

Thanks for your input!

In regards to what you said about the self and the sixth density social memory complex, there is very little, in my personal opinion, that can be known, and perhaps even less understood, so I will put this discussion aside, and address only what you said about workings with the self in third density.

It is absolutely necessary to have a detachment to the outcome when offering service to others, if this service is to be of the positive nature of course. But I don't agree, for the moment, that this detachment applies to workings with the self. I think that it is important with that manifestation of the self which is desired by the self, as one is correcting the imbalances in the self, which, as stated in Icaro's post can only be corrected in space/time.

Self-judgement can be put upon the self, based upon the expectation of a certain outcome when serving others; that the efforts made did not have the outcome that one was expecting, so one starts to judge the self for not doing "enough". That's one thing. But what I am talking about is the imbalances in the self and workings with these imbalances. As imbalances can only be corrected in space/time, should one not expect a certain outcome from the work with balancing exercises?

With love,
L.