Disoriented & Confused/ Chaos everywhere

[Hototo]

Wouldn't know about you specifically but after my encounters with the weirdness of life in its grand/true form I've been beaming out/broadcasting nothing but confusion, disorientation and annoyance at the state of things, with an underlying current of love and every now and then the dropping of light/wisdom bombs.

For me the process has been peaking lately on account of no longer being able to find things that are strictly speaking dangerous to me in the way that I was afraid of before. As that fear is being addressed and its points are being interpreted one by one the "fear feels" the permission to express itself even more, which is why I both become more stable and notice more chaos in my environment.

As you are, dear Caycegal, part of my environment, I notice a much increased level of chaotic behavior in you.

As to why I don't want to control what I beam out/broadcast; I did for 25+ years, it didn't work.

Case in point, randomly reading my fav web comic;