are you doing enough? (to serve)

[native]

Yes, she was "overly giving", but I'm not sure it has to do with the wisdom. As Ra mentioned, *compassion* is something that Carla felt that she lacked, *to balance her wisdom*:

"As we have said, this instrument, feeling that it lacked compassion to balance wisdom, chose an incarnative experience whereby..."

Ra said that the distortion of being "overly giving" is primarily due to the blockages in the indigo ray:

"This instrument also experiences some distortion of the green-ray energy center which you may call the heart center. It is overly open due to an intensive desire distortion on the part of this mind/body/spirit complex towards service to others, or as you may call it, universal love. This entity, therefore, spends itself without regard to its reserves of mind/body/spirit complex distortion in regard to what you call strength or energy. This distortion is primarily due to the blockage of the indigo ray. As we have said before, the misapprehension distortion of the instrument responsible for this blockage is the basic orientation towards a belief in unworthiness. The unworthiness distortion blocks the free flow of intelligent energy."

So, my understanding is that pre-incarnatively Carla felt that she wanted to balance her wisdom with compassion, and due to her strong desire to learn this, to balance this, she has an open green ray. But it is the blockage in the indigo ray that made her "overly giving". I might be wrong though.

Yeah it is confusing, and you make a good point with the pre-incarnative information. Hmmm. Well perhaps info related to Jim helps here..

"The work of sixth density is to unify wisdom and compassion. This entity abounds in wisdom. The compassion it is desirous of balancing has, as its antithesis, lack of compassion. In the more conscious being this expresses or manifests itself as lack of compassion for self. "

So like Jim, Carla apparently had a lot of wisdom before incarnating. It seems they both went through what many of us do in this life, which is the task of finding love for themselves when it was lacking from others.

I think the confusion may be that indigo involves unifying wisdom and compassion, so the boundaries of the two begin to blend and play off each other, offering a delicate dance. I can see how since self and other are one, too much wisdom would result in an incarnative experience where compassion for self is not pronounced, and with Carla, this involved an overly giving personality. So by learning to love herself (indigo work), which ironically is seen as applying wisdom in this lifetime, must be offering a time/space balance of compassion for self, which would balance out her imbalance towards wisdom.

I could be wrong too. The indigo center seems to push and pull on the green and blue rays in a very delicate way. I can see how it's possible that time/space balance reflects in an opposite manner in space/time. So too much wisdom in an overall time/space balance, means in space/time compassion must be emphasized in some manner while lacking wisdom, and then the appropriate balance of wisdom must be blended in. It's almost as if you're vibrating back and forth, attempting to find your center. In time/space you're way off to the right, when you cross the boundary into space/time, you find yourself way off to the left..then you have to find the middle. Perhaps?