are you doing enough? (to serve)

[Jeremy]

I'm definitely guilty of this even though I always try to preach the Being aspect as paramount. Even still, I feel like there could always be more ways or better ways to serve. From looking within, I feel it's an imbalance within acceptance of myself or lack of more precisely. A feeling of ineptitude almost yet the reasons for this allude me. I've never had the highest self esteem which is partly to blame. Again though, why? What's the point of having something as silly as low self esteem as it accomplishes absolutely nothing and I know this yet I still feel that I can be better and do more which I think stems from a "I'm not good enough" mentality.

The funny thing is that I never think I'm not good enough though but I really think its something that which has been built in as a bias that I'm still trying to unravel. It's not I look at a situation and say "I'm not good enough". It's always about doing more or being more.