08-19-2013, 09:12 PM
(08-19-2013, 08:31 PM)plenum Wrote: I am fortunate not to feel the pain of being single. That does not mean I am in a partner-type relationship (I am not), but I have not felt the loneliness of travelling this earth road on my own. I had the good fortune of meeting my best friend and soul brother in my first year at university; and even though he has been occupied with his own relationships over the years, we share a certain soul contract this lifetime, a certain brother-knights on this journey.
aside from that, I have known since fairly early on that my road would be a monastic-type one, and that a partner-type bonding would not be on the cards. So apart from the occasional dalliance over the years, I have travelled the single road, and it hasn't bothered me (being a pre-life choice in my opinion).
but I do know that others (and the majority of people in that case) feel the strong need for a lifetime bonding with another. To share your whole life with that entire individual; to learn and grow with them. To start a family (if that is the mutual wish).
so yes, I feel your difficulties, although that is not my chosen path this lifetime.
I hope you find what you seek. To many, it is the number one priority in life; to find their life partner; being a more important goal than one's work, one's hobbies, or even one's extended family or friends.
best wishes on that road.
plenum
I was lucky in that I met 4 life long best friends when I was quite young about 8 or 9. We have been best friends ever since and much catalyst has come from our interaction.
This is something I have dealt with over the years, I always had an inkling that I was going to be single for most of my life from a pretty young age. It's taken me awhile to fully get past the desire for a partner, to be honest most of it was conditioning from society. I feel if there wasn't such strong bias towards finding a partner asap for love and happiness then I wouldn't have even worried about it.
I feel like it isn't the lack of partner that is the catalyst for me but rather me conforming to social stigmas even though I felt in my core that it isn't for me at this time.
As my understanding has increased I have found it is much easier to pin-point the area the catalyst is intended to change or spark. I thought my partner issues where mainly a green ray/orange catalyst and thus I felt like I needed to work on loving other and self and almost forcing myself to be intimate even when it didn't feel right. This of-course was not the real cause of the blockage but rather in the yellow ray. Once this was identified the course of action was clear as day and the catalyst was successful and a weight has been lifted.