I'm Tired

[BrownEye]

I don't know if this forum is healthy for me anymore, right now, I get knots in my gut every time I come on here.

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I feel like I am addicted, like there are things drawing me here, but often I come and sit on the site page and don't do anything, don't post or read and when I closed the window I feel a whole bunch of energy disconnect from mine. I have been trying to not keep it open in a browser tab because that seems to act as the window. I feel like I am being called, that my assistance is needed, but I also feel like I am being lured to be bent to the will of others.

I am so tired.

Isn't that interesting? I have been aware of this for over a year, and remain for the same reasons. I feel as if there is always an egregore present, which may be similar to an individuation of the larger web 'awareness'. Not to mention, the web is a literal portal to the astral.

Do you know what to do about it as opposed to separating from it?