Honesty in relationships/open blue ray activity.

[Jeremy]

This is one of many aspects of my contemplation regarding the potential reconciliation with my wife. The reason being is that we are so different on so many levels, I struggle to find where out common ground is. I mean sure, we can make small talk fine but when it comes to talking about what she does for work, how to live life without the need for material items, giving up the wants/desires, the only conclusion I can draw is that we can simply accept them or choose to move on if subtle suggestions along with hoping our actions begin to rub off doesn't seem to be going anywhere.

I wouldn't necessarily call it stooping down to her level as it kinda sounds like you're putting yourself above her even though I know you didn't intend it that way but it does speak a little as to your thinking as I'm in the same boat. I have come to call it simply a different level.

There is a quote that I remember from Ra or Q'uo stating that true green ray service involves such protection of the truth for the sake of continuity betwixt the mated pair until the other self begins to take on the spiritual path. This protection though may seem like deceit especially in my eyes is akin to telling a child that their dog ran away instead of being run over by a car. It's just something that their fragile minds can't handle at that moment though there will always be that time where such honesty can eventually make its way.

I see it as picking your battles so to speak. if there is a subject that you feel passionate about yet she's on the polar opposite of that belief, try to phrase it into a question that she can ponder and find the answer to herself. Kinda in the way a psychologist does. They will ask certain questions with key words or phrases that will eventually lead the patient to find their answer within.

I definitely feel you on your struggles though as I can already see the struggles that I will have once we reconcile. The level of restraint must be tortuous at times and at these times, my only answer would be to smile and accept her level of sleep that she's in. The harder you push and infringe upon her free will, the likelier that you will become further apart. It's up to you on how much you can accept the seeming unacceptable at this time or better yet accept that which seems unacceptable only because of your own distortions being mirrored back to you. Once you can work with her ever poignant mirroring, maybe you both will find that joyous medium to continue or hopefully embark upon an active spiritual journey together. If such a journey doesn't come to fruition, revel in the constant face of catalyst that you have planned for yourself and remember that you're exactly where you need to be. Though as I have come to realize also is that such a realization is the most difficult aspect of having the faith to persevere and keep on keepin' on.

Good luck brother