Left-Hand Service-to-Others

[Adonai One]

I originally wanted to ask this from a point-of-view that would allow others to form their own hypothesis and theory irrespective of mine. Since this will likely be a vague discussion as it stands, I will admit that I find myself to be a left-hand but service-to-others individual.

This might be controversial:

I serve others because it pleases me because when I please another it is indeed pleasing myself. When I help another or bring them pleasure, I feel the pleasure as inherently mine. To me to serve another is to serve myself. I feel as the receiver in all my givings as well being given to by the giver. I do it all for myself for I am all things. I view another as myself with their freewill and all. I hope this makes sense, haha.

Is this a correct way to view the left-hand path? As one who seeks self-gratification? Because I am indeed selfishly gratified by the pleasure of all, by the enablement and empowerment of all as being infinity. I am selfish but not out of a desire to put all under my reign but because I recognize all as inherently unified as one self. Thus I feel I selfishly receive with every giving.

Anyways, I appreciate any comments to further enhance the meaning of this dichotomy or to just prove me as a clown.

I mean, how does my perspective differ from the right-hand path? Haha.