getting stoned. how often, and why?

[Hototo]

I smoke not to get to states that I can get to without smoking as well.

I smoke, mostly, because I want to know there is something near by that will always regardless of how messed up I've made myself be, lift myself up to the higher planes.

Its kind of like knowing what the emergency numbers are and carrying a phone around that can just dial them. Its not so much about the phone or the numbers, but the peace of mind knowing that it can be there, even if its not.

On the other hand, I'm starting to enjoy not being high because constant awareness of telepathy in such enclosed societies gets very very distracting at times.