what does true freedom mean to you?

[AnthroHeart]

Thanks plenum. I have found reality to be rather sticky. Lessons I had learned in the past come back as they are stuck to me. Perhaps this is a lesson to work through my thoughts of wanting to end this incarnation. I don't see how these thoughts are healthy, but thankfully I don't have them all the time. I have moments of inspiration and gratitude about the same amount of times. The positive thoughts balance out the negative thoughts, they are like a see-saw pendulum going back and forth. But I found it interesting how reality seems to ooze. That's how catalyst flows in my life. So right now I can't say what I choose, live or die. It goes back and forth. I feel I could do so much more for my mission here. So perhaps now is not the time. But the thought is that I would be more eager to serve in a higher density.