getting stoned. how often, and why?

[Brittany]

I had highly unpleasant experiences with a family member doing drugs as I was growing up, which conditioned a deep bias against controlled substances into me. Only within the past few years have I become tolerant of my friends doing it and become comfortable being around people who are smoking (though it still requires a specific type of group vibration for me to be comfortable). The closest I have come to "doing drugs" was the powerful psychotropic drugs my psychiatrist put me on. I hated the entire experience, though some of them gave me very profound perceptual distortions (the only real noteworthy visual hallucinations I've had in my life), and I've never felt better than the moment I realized all of that crap was finally out of my system for good.

Aside from the bias, I've always been able to open my third eye with relative ease, and quite often experience states of consciousness comparable to being "high", based on how I've heard it described by others. There are simple activities, ritual or otherwise, that I can partake in to put me in these states almost instantly. I also tend to empath any high going around in a group, and will become more "out there" than anyone who is actually smoking, making contact high a very real thing for me. Basically, if I sit around a bunch of high people I can trip for free. I'm interested in sitting next to someone doing LSD or DMT...I'm very curious how much of their experience I could absorb.