The elephant in the room.

[Adonai One]

Most importantly, if you are THE all powerful Creator, why are you still here?

There is something I have learned of the utmost importance to my journey. I am the Creator, I am part of its process, a microcosm, but I am not THE One Infinite Creator. I hold equal potential, but only a fraction of the kinetic actualization.

As soon as you think you're done, you're going in circles.

The whole bloody thing is a circle: Octave after octave. It is only the meaning we give now that makes the whole thing intrinsic. The whole ends up being divine as it stands.

Also, I will add this fun adage - "Wide is the path but narrow is the gate."

Even the souls lying in near-death will rise through that gate.

Hehe who is the "I" that 'your' will supposedly belongs to? You speak now of your personality as a separate thing which is something in itself, but is it really?

I do not see a "self" within me, I see a process and that process is the same process of the Creator. It is, to me, the deepest of traps to cling to identity, to personality and 'self' that is individual and existential.

Is it not like clinging to a painting? To hard work? We work very hard to shape who we are, Eternal. It should not be easily cast aside.

Should we detach from everything? Even our identities? Then what do we become? Another set of choices? It's maddening my friend. This has reduced me to seeing nothing. I indeed have much to balance.