The elephant in the room.

[Adonai One]

"The Abyss is guarded by the demon Choronzon, who manifests during the third, ceremonial method of crossing this gulf. He represents those parts of one's consciousness and unconsciousness -- "a momentary unity capable of sensation and of expression," in Crowley's terms[9] -- that are unwilling or unable to enter the Divine. "

"Choronzon - is Existential Self at the last gasp...Beyond Choronzon we are no longer our Self. The "personality" on the brink of the Abyss will do anything, say anything and find any excuse to avoid taking this disintegrating step into "non-being.""

One who fails to cross the abyss becomes a black brother, obsessed with the idea that their own ego is the highest state of being.

So be it for those. If I am considered dark for valuing the creation of the self I have built since I emerged from the void, so be it. It will die when I inevitably have the will to surrender to the everything/nothingness once more but I refuse to see that as the end goal. I believe the perfection is now and when that now turns to surrender so be it.

The difference here, Eternal, is that I am not decieved. I do not think the universe is flawed. I only act according to my will, my nature and I feel it is my responsibility to follow that as it was within my will and as it was likely foreseen when I left the Creator himself.

I refuse to be decieved into believing that there is a strict path for if there was, as you speak below, the barriers would be far more stricter.

Aha! A wall will stop a force because that is its nature as a wall. There is no obedience required, and there is nothing truly to resist against except the self.

There is an order to the universe, and the nature of that order does what it does in accordance with its nature.

Heh, speaking of nature...