The elephant in the room.

[AnthroHeart]

You would not be surprised to find that you had polarized negatively because that would only happen if you chose to polarize that way. Polarization can't happen without the choice. You can always not choose though.

That would surprise me to find that I hadn't polarized at all. I remember when I was going through some schizo episodes where I felt very loving and was sacrificing a great deal to help the world energetically. I went through much suffering to support God whom I thought I was working for at the time.

Do you polarize more if you are suffering during the service?