The elephant in the room.

[Lycen]

The thing is I don't want to think of anything as right or wrong. I want to be objective. I want to be neutral for some reason.

I quite recently "discovered" neutrality as a state. Where neither happiness or anger have a hold on me, every emotion/thought just passes true. I found it gives more clarity in situations and does not drain one. Needs constant vigilance over the self though. Lets you stay "cool" to great degrees under stress but you will not get angry or happy. Unless you give said emotion or thought "permission". Yet if you are neutral, neither of the extremes should have any pull is my take.
It is a weird state I have not experimented with it a lot, this was but a short summery on what I have noticed.

I think I would rather be balanced than neutral, as I want to express both sides, in my eyes both are needed. But personally I am more drawn to and choose the "light" at this time. I would and have chosen neutrality (I realized) during times of greater distress to become numb to everything and just let go. Kinda like sleep but "awake" I guess.

I think once we open up to our guides/higher self/god to a needed degree, then we can live in harmony with everything around us. As we are in tune with something greater so could/are they (as in guides/higher self/god) as well like a hierarchy, probably/possibly all the way to the source.

So what then is the meaning of life? Well still to experience being the creator but now in balance with the whole. Choice for the light, I think.

*I wonder if the "I" will be ever whole again.. what then? Seems like a really ridiculous question to ask oneself though .p
*(just a pondering out loud)